These days I look at my face in the morning and it is starting to appear a bit older and spottier and I wonder if he still thinks of it as the same pretty face he met seven years ago, wonder what it will look like in another seven years and then sometimes if I'm feeling extra dull I wonder what it might look like in thirty years. I think maybe I should start shopping the anti-aging products.
I wonder when I will stop fretting about the freckles that keep appearing on my face, no matter how much sunscreen I slather on or how many wide-brimmed hats I insist on wearing, and just let them multiply freely while he holds my hand as we walk in the sunshine. It's obvious to everyone but me that he doesn't give a shit about the damn freckles, just walk with him dammit.
We've only been married for five years and we have so much ahead of us. I mean, five is certainly a significant milestone but it's no ten or twenty or thirty. I tend to be the kind of person that dwells on a pleasant thought and gets weepy about all of the lovely things that are still going to happen. I'm a planner and I like to think about future plans and there's nothing more cozy to think about than The Plan Of Our Lives. I mostly think about how it's nice that we have so much time to grow old together and how there are so many secrets and beautiful truths that life has yet to reveal. I look forward to being surprised by both good things and bad, but always with him.
He is a better person than I am, always giving the benefit of the doubt, always assuming the best and not the worst in people. He is positive and optimistic and I am a bit gloomier and distrustful. He defuses my attitudes and I have yet to find the point where his patience wears thin.
He still can't quite remember how to order me a hamburger, even though he's heard it a thousand times, but he recalls with perfect clarity our first date and what we ordered and how the sun was just so and the glasses for our beers were square and that was a bit annoying and froofy but, whatever, he was having dinner with a pretty girl that he hoped to see again.
I am so glad that he asked to see me again.
Happy Anniversary!
Posted by: Raven | April 19, 2011 at 06:07 AM
My husband and I will be married for 9 years this year. Nine. Yikes! I still can't get over the fact he thinks I'm pretty and not scary and fat and look like a hobbit.
And yes, you're right -- you have so many more bests yet to come.
Posted by: Lisa @ Boondocks | April 19, 2011 at 08:20 AM
Happy Anniversary!
Posted by: HereWeGoAJen | April 19, 2011 at 08:21 AM
Oh my this is so sweet! Happy anniversary to you both!
(By the way, I worry about the freckles too. They appear unbidden even with a generous slathering of sunscreen.)
Posted by: Life of a Doctor's Wife | April 19, 2011 at 09:04 AM
Happy anniversary! One of my favorite couples.
Posted by: Jennie | April 19, 2011 at 09:14 AM
What a lovely tribute to your guy. You have a precious family and I thoroughly enjoy these little glimpses into your lives. So, thank you!
Posted by: Susan | April 19, 2011 at 09:58 AM
Happy Anniversary!
Posted by: Vanessa Napolitano | April 19, 2011 at 10:09 AM
What a lovely post. Happy Anniversary, you two!
Posted by: Sarah in Ottawa | April 19, 2011 at 11:11 AM
I love this. Happy anniversary!
Posted by: Ashley | April 19, 2011 at 11:30 AM
Happy anniversary! Five years feels like an eternity yet so short somehow at the same time.
Posted by: Mel | April 19, 2011 at 03:09 PM
Awwww. Happy Anniversary to you both! I love that picture.... can't believe 5 years ago we were in Maui. Time has FLOWN!
Posted by: Courtney | April 19, 2011 at 03:40 PM
Happy anniversary! Isn't it amazing how much they can love?
Posted by: Theresa | April 19, 2011 at 03:41 PM
Happy anniversary! We'll have been married 5 years this June. And I still worry about my freckles too.
Posted by: Elsha | April 19, 2011 at 09:06 PM
Happy Anniversary lady! I read this and promptly went to give my Mister a kiss.
Posted by: Shilo | April 19, 2011 at 10:21 PM
Happy Anniversary! Isn't it amazing what can happen in 5 years? Our four year anniversary is in a couple weeks and I can't believe how different our lives are - house, (almost) two kids - it's crazy!
Posted by: Jessica | April 20, 2011 at 08:23 PM
Aw man, you made me tear up! Happy anniversary, you guys.
Posted by: Nothing But Bonfires | April 20, 2011 at 08:49 PM
So very sweet. Wishes for many more good times to you both.
Posted by: Kellyology | April 21, 2011 at 08:41 AM
Congratulations on the big milestone and yes, I think 5 is a big milestone!!
Posted by: Erica | April 25, 2011 at 06:27 PM